My house is empty...in more ways than one! There is a spot missing where we moved the twin bed out of the office/guest room and into my daughter's new apartment. There is a gaping hole in the living room where the old sofa was, that went to live in her new apartment, and awaits our NEW sofa. My daughter's room upstairs is in the process of being cleaned and painted...we waited too long to get the experimental paint design of blue and cantaloupe ( I know!!! , right???) from her teen aged years into something more calm, more serene and more grown up!! So I took most things out (the junk), moved large pieces of furniture to the center of the room, and it's ready to paint. I'm thinking a calm, neutral, hint of taupe color...... but it's clearly NOT lived in right now. My office has yet to be put back together......so no guests can come for now...if you come, you will end up on the sofa, the one in the family room!
And most of all, after my husband has gone to work for the day, there is an emptiness in our house....both college kids are off on their own, with play time before classes actually start and they then have to do their jobs!
Not that I mind the quiet, nor the emptiness....it's a playground for the mind.....yet it leaves this mamma just a little bit restless at the moment. I have LOTS to do to keep me busy, yet I feel restless.....do I tic off the items of my TO DO list, and make them TA-DA"s?? or do I shuck all the responsibility and go off and shop or play?? Oddly enough, that doesn't draw me like it used to........
I have enough to do each day that I am never bored...I have work to do...yet I feel restless. A restless feeling in my spirit, that longs for completeness of lists, a feeling of accomplishment, and a sense of my own calling. A yearning for settledness. Do you have that?
While the washer runs in the background, I make my mental list of what I want to accomplish today. And sometimes I wander about my house, stirring the creativity of my mind and what project I'd like to tackle next. Some projects have prerequisites, you know?? I want to do Project A, but need to do THIS first. I am sure you have areas like that also.
So in the quietness of the morning, I rest in the fact that God is with me, He is always near. I rest in the fact that what I accomplish doesn't earn merit with Him, He loves me regardless. He desires for me to LOVE HIM. And I must rest in that and do so.
As well, I long for this hot dry summer to be done......I wish for cooler days, and the feeling of fall, for autumn smells and sights, and for the renewed feeling that school and football season brings. It's really my favorite time of the year...and I love to decorate for fall......but really don't want to do so when there are still triple digits showing on the thermometer!! So I am restless for cooler weather, for sure!
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